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No Genesis
04:29
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To live is to learn how to die
To forgive is to grieve
A funeral under festival lights
Spirit sing to me
Of the wonder after grief
To be free is a brokenness
A slave running into wilderness
Pulled out on a river
Where I’m always and never
Pulled above time
Taking me far beyond and deep inside
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2. |
Rope to the Cosmos
05:05
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Every prophet reaches acceptance
At a threshold unknown lets go of his exit
But you won’t accept the long truth
You couldn’t forgive God for what meaning would cost you
Sometimes it’s painful thrown into meaning
But pain is the painkiller when you’re teething
We’re not so numb are we?
We just don’t know how to grieve the presence of beauty
I still can’t distill it
The most important piece is the one that’s missing
I know I’m a compromised witness
To understand this I’ve got to forgive it
I still don’t know what I’m cutting to the core of
But maybe the rope to the cosmos is just braided with boredom
I’m beginning to trust myself to see
From a part that’s never been wounded in me
Maybe the ocean of enlightenment
Was just a slow release of what I could never forgive
I’ve been trying hard to find someone to blame
There’s a silence that keeps calling my name
I’m at the threshold of
If to take hold of
What I can’t be
I’m forgiving the giving up of the ground of my being
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3. |
Ask a Child
03:41
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Give up already
There’s no changing how we measure time
The future is only in your mind
Give up already on time
You’ll never have less than what is in your mind
Self-created pain is all you have
If you kill yourself with what may never be
It’s a needless worry
It’s a needless worry
Ask a child how to be
Ask a child how to be
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4. |
The Next Age
06:04
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Who will empathize with this question
It's been 2,000 years since the resurrection
Who will meet my eyes when I talk
Of the second crucifixion of God
A voice still cries in the wilderness
The blood of the moon
We've waiting for 2,000 years
We still cry for manna
In the kingdom of Heaven
There's water in the desert somewhere
When could we admit that Eden is gone
When do you build a home in Babylon
The shadow of the apocalypse has stretched so long
Is it an issue of waiting
Or has it all already come?
A voice still cries in the wilderness
The blood of the moon
We've waiting for 2,000 years
We still cry for manna
In the kingdom of Heaven
There's water in the desert somewhere
I wanna see the end
Of this aquarian age
But what then?
This book always needs another page
So what if love remained the same
In the next age
And the next age
And the next age
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I don’t want to stay here
I want this feeling to leave
I’m still learning
All the same things
Again and again
I still haven’t gone where I’ve been
Deflect; misdirect
It’s hard to get yourself to want to reorient
I’ve grown so impatient
Since I stabilized
It feels like a death to sit still
So I distract to feel alive
It stays the same
I used to sit with the tension but it never changed
It’s hard to remain
It’s hard starting famine in a field of grain
For every hand reached to heaven’s high
I’d wait my whole life for a sign
Every time I stood mystified
The purple always fades back to white
It’ll take my whole afterlife
To learn how to abide
It’s in the waiting I don’t know why
It’s hard starting famine under festival lights
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6. |
Papering over an Abyss
01:50
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7. |
Lungs
03:52
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Cut me out this place
It’s not fairI want to leave
Gasping at times
My lungs, they tell me to breathe
Don’t want to be too morbid
Don’t want to bring you down
Like a child I say things out of place
Move on quickly don’t notice
Please don’t notice
The stress of two eyes on me
How many more might be
Is it selfish to wonder
Move on quickly don't answer
Please don’t answer
Pull my eyes pull my hair and my skin
Just limits to feel
Thank God for time
My lungs they tell me to breathe
The light of my love
Eclipses my practice of sense
Heaven’s nudged
Me toward what I shun
I slip into the sun
Feeling for the fear I flee from
Too late to shut my ears
I’m in a world that’s called me near
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I don’t even know what I thought I wanted
But I thought by now I’d have
What as a kid I thought I saw in my parents
I expected
By now every fundamental fear
Would fade into what I thought they fell back on
I’ve come of age
It’s the same
I don’t even know how
I thought I’d escape this
I don’t know what I thought
Was behind the curtain in the distance
The real death
Was never in the dying – only in the resistance
But to blame
Is a hollow game
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9. |
Every Temple Curtain
03:57
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My life until now
Was asking for easy ways out
Choice to run from choice that scared me
Was always still a cross to carry
I’ve been waiting for the big event
Waiting for the obvious
End of the story
But even that God won’t interpret for me
I may never really count the cost
I always prayed for freedom but now that I’m free I’m lost
It’s not that I can’t believe
It’s that I don’t want to grieve
I prayed for enlightenment but wasn’t prepared to weep
I’ve waited for God to vindicate me
For a faith that would save me
But Nazarites will lose their hair
Every temple curtain tears
The time has come to decide
How far I’ll go without a sign
I can’t follow into Jerusalem
Still playing dumb
I may never know that I know
In a dry and thirsty land my plea gets answered with a poem:
“World is adoration
Silence is saturation”
There’s freedom out of Egypt
But it’s straight into wilderness
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10. |
Thrown in Waltz
04:56
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11. |
Take Me Home
06:27
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Take me home
Across them wide, wide mountains
Oh time that has gone
Take me home
Return me to my sender
Take me home
I count the leaves
As they turn and as they're falling
I count the leaves
They're counting me
As I turn and as I'm falling
They're counting me
Take me home
Across them wide, wide mountains
Oh time that has gone
Take me home
Return me to my sender
Take me home
It weighs on me
And finds me in the strangest places
In seldom peace
It weighs on me
That I may ever see my brother
It weighs on me
Take me home
Across them wide, wide mountains
Oh time that has gone
Take me home
Return me to my sender
Take me home
In seldom peace
In seldom peace
In seldom peace...
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12. |
Melt into Air
02:30
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Endless Forms Tulsa, Oklahoma
Endless Forms is the dream pop music of Justin Allen. It's big. It's subtle.
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