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Into The Swarm Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Give me heavy love and I swear
I’ll give myself away
Let go of my escapes
Saddle me with complexity and care
Give me a pregnancy scare
Give me fewer ways to run away
I’ll give you a million years to waste
[Chorus]
I’m pooling what I have left
To trigger butterfly effects
I’m learning how to love
What I lose in the end
I’m falling into your arms
I’m diving into the swarm
I’m afraid to be needed
I’m afraid of this feeling
[Verse 2]
Last night I woke myself crying in bed
I dreamt that we got married again
Guide me by the hand to the edge
Tell me the whole truth about myself
[Chorus]
I’m pooling what I have left
To trigger butterfly effects
I’m learning how to love
What I lose in the end
I’m falling into your arms
I’m diving into the swarm
I need to be needed
I’m falling into this feeling
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The House of Love lyrics:
[Verse 1]
I’ve been here before
Stepping through one-way doors
On my wedding day
I wasn’t afraid
I’m biting more than I can chew
Anymore you kinda have to prove
That you would give up
Your lives unlived
[Pre-chorus 1]
My body breaks trying to sublimate
My libido and lust into meaningful change
[Chorus]
I need a taste of what life could be like
With some blood on the line
I’m wrestling with the myth of myself
Fully realized
[Verse 2]
So I blindly bring
Myself to commit
‘Cause the rest of it
Is just dopamine hits
You search for love
Without giving a shit
You search for love
But as entertainment
[Pre-chorus 2]
I’d give it all again
Knowing it never ends
You wanted everything
[Chorus]
I need a taste of what life could be like
With some blood on the line
I’m wrestling with the myth of myself
Fully realized
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A Door That Disappears lyrics:
[Verse 1]
It’s hard to know
If I kept the faith
For every forward step An exit fades
I don’t even know what I’m waiting for It seems every few years or so
I don’t know who I am anymore
I’m running out of parts to perform
[Pre-Chorus]
So I’m here against the fence again I’ve nowhere left to go but within
[Chorus]
So how long will I wait?
I take so long to give myself away
[Verse 2]
My fundamental fear is being engulfed By what I want to give all my love
So the choice remains
To own a sacrifice or to die alone
[Pre-chorus 2]
So I’m up against the fence another year I’m walking through a door that disappears
[Chorus]
So how long will I wait?
I take so long to give myself away
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Make Me Feel Too Much Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
I’m trying to taste
I’m trying to touch
I’m trying to feel enough of what I can Before I begin
To give in, to give up
I’m pouring out my cup
You’re kicking out my crutch
You me me feel too much
[Chorus]
You make me feel too much love
You remind me what I most need to find Will be found where I least want to look
[Verse 2]
‘Cause where I least want to look
Is at what I stand to lose
My greatest loves make me feel too much But maybe that’s the proof
I can use
To contain multitudes
I’m a room within a room
I’m sinking deeper down in the pool
[Chorus]
You make me feel too much love
You remind me what I most need to find
Will be found where I least want to look
You make me feel too much love
You remind me what I most need to find
Will be found where I least want to look
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Make Me Feel Too Much pt. 2 lyrics:
I’m ready to admit
The emptiness of following my bliss I’m giving myself over to this
I’m ready to dump my chips
Why do I feel alive
When you ask too much of me?
To find myself desiring
A life where you limit me
You remind that my highest wants
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I Want It All Lyrics:
I’m holding onto something But I’m not sure it’s real Maybe I’m desiring desire Maybe I’m hungry for hunger
How can I still want everything
With so much loss ahead of me? You said I could enjoy my life more
If I didn’t take it so goddam seriously
I want it all
I’m just trying to accept my role
I’m trying hard to love the life of an adult Now I stand to lose it all
You said I’m searching for something But I don’t want to find it
I already have the answer
But I’m hungry for hunger
I guess the price of giving up authenticity Is everything
There’s nothing left to connect with
I’m just performing identity
I want it all
I’m just trying to accept my role
I’m trying hard to love the life of an adult Now I stand to lose it all
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Riding the Red Horse lyrics:
Every path I didn’t take stretched so long
And I want it all
But I’m growing bored of that siren call
I’m growing into something small
I’m riding the red horse
But even everything leaves me wanting more
So what the hell am I searching for?
So what did I come so far for?
I’m riding the red horse
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Love Without Loss
03:17
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Love Without Loss lyrics:
[Verse 1]
I’ve spent the last year
Trying to dissociate
With a drink in the tub
To sweat out all the pain
I manage my symptoms
But the crisis remains
With the world up in flames
I’ll relearn how to play
[Verse 2]
I curl my toes over the edge
Of a cliff above a canyon
Trying to hedge my bets
But love without loss
Is a layered attempt
At a life I might have
But don’t have to begin
It’s easy to distract
Myself until the end
From a choice I won’t make
‘Til there’s no options left
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I Needed to Find a Fire
06:17
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I Needed to Find a Fire lyrics:
[Intro]
I’m remembering a dream
I needed to find a fire
Set me ablaze with desire
When nothing’s on the line a dreamer dies
[Verse 1]
It seems every day I’m rereading my wedding vows
It’s been a while and I’m trying to remember how
I’ve been looking down every passage I didn’t take
I’m lingering a little too long in the doorframes
[Chorus]
I’m remembering a dream
I needed to find a fire
Set me ablaze with waking light
I realized a dream and the dreaming died
[Verse 2]
I’ve been waiting my life for the dam to break
But now it’s pouring the wall and I feel myself hesitate
[Chorus]
I’m remembering a dream
I needed to find a fire
Set me ablaze with waking light
When nothing’s on the line a dreamer dies
[Bridge]
Something has gotten so close to me
I was reaching for something to reach me
When I lay down to sleep
Just when I’m slipping over
I hear something over my shoulder
It’s telling me “Yes”
Forever
Forever
Forever
Forever
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The House of Love (Epilogue) lyrics:
I’ve been here before
Losing sight of shore
You said when it disappears
To run toward my fear
Everything is always moving forever
Belonging calls me out deeper forever
I need a taste of what life could be like
With some blood on the line
I’m wrestling with the myth of myself
Fully realized
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Endless Forms Tulsa, Oklahoma
Endless Forms is the dream pop music of Justin Allen. It's big. It's subtle.
www.endlessformsmusic.com
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